leavin on a jetplane

im leavin 2mro..
im very happy 2 go bck n c mama, abah, n my frenz but yet its kinda sad 4 me to leave uitm merbok n all my frenz whom i've known since my 1st sem in uitm. its bittersweet la.
well, i'll b continuing my studies in s.alam nex year. i wont b bck 2 sg petani anymore.
goodbye kedah, goodbye penang, im leavin 4 good..

i cried so hard when i left uitm 2day. n thre were min, romzi, miza n also sara( things r gettin better between us, alhamdulillah, praise 2 allah) oo yeah n kholie( she'll b in s.alam oso nex year). they sent me 2 d car.n i started 2 cry when i hugged min. shit~ im the 1 who started 2 cry..then we drove off.oo yeah Maw's driving btw.

we stopped at malinja 2 meet d boyz. pipis, dz, adam noah, n syafiq(my crush).

n im still crying at tht moment. its really hard 4 me to stop once i started 2 cry. canggeng kn?

after tht we went 2 queensbay cuz azee wanted 2 buy some clothes..(Retail theraphy bebeh)
finally, FOREVER 21 is opening. p/s: fiqa, besar ni bha forever 21 d sna compared 2 d OU.
n there were so many nice printed tops..n its really sux cuz i didnt buy anything. i cant. i have 2 save my money 4 2mro in case my luggage will be exceeding the weigh limit, i have to pay then. its really sux when u really want something but u cnt have it. shit~

although wif very limited budget i do managed 2 get a multi layered necklace frm DIVA n a belt. splurge~

later tht nite, we went clubbing. MOMOE. oo eyza n maw won in a dance competition. seriously,they danced fucking hot. surprisingly, we met pipis, dz, sopek n his fren. we danced n laughing out loud when we started 2 do stupid dance.

we planned 2 chill @ mamak nearby USM But unfortunately it was canceled> elul got drunk> like realy drunk n kept vomitting. we cancelled d plan n went home.

but even though some shit happened i think 2nite is really fun n we really enjoyed our last nite in penang! 4 d last time wif our frenz.

here i am posting my blog @ 5.27am waiting 2 get ready b4 going 2 d airport. my flight 2 kk will be departing on 9 something. have 2 go thre earlier 2 check up.

goodbye penang! goodbye kedah! n i'll b leavin on a jetplane.

sunshine??

since the 1st day i reached here till 2day, it has been raining cats n dogs.

i cnt go out. i wanna go 2 the beach, but the wave is so menakutkn. usually u cn see ppl walking @ the beach..thre will b so many pak arab n also the women wearing jubah n purdah naik jetski.

hot mat salleh jog along the beach without shirt showing their pfft..abs,(im drooling)..

pendek kata, u wont c no one at te beach. even @ nite also u cn c couples doing their "thang" .may it be in the car or even just on the sandy beach. very PDA. but i wont be able to c all thyese things since it has been raining this past few days. wut i cn c is the pokok kelapa terhuyung hayang..

the wave hitting the shore n the wave is really B.I.G.

pakcik2 nelayan punya smpan kena pukul ombak.

n im stucked in the house. doin nuthing. jz surfin the net . cnt even watch tv. well thanx to ASTRO, if its raining, the service will be unavailable. so there's me sitting on the couch with my laptop n staring at the tv which appeared nuthing rather than "the service is unavailable". Shits~

oo..yeah, while i was checkin some Video org kena tangkap basah by JAIS @ youtube, i saw this clip during the tsunami. so i got an idea.

i go out 2 the balcony n started to record the ocean.manalah tau if tiba2 ada tsunami, i cn sell the video. n i will be rich. plus, my mama warned me about the tsunami warning for northern part of msia. so. i waited for a few mins..n nothin happen.

cis, penat only i stood @ the balcony siap kena tempias hujan lg. shits.

but here some pics of the pokok kelapa terhuyung hayang kena tiup angin.

4.48pm5.00pm
5.03 pm

the angin was so kuat.

u cn hear the sliding door bergoyang. i put my face on it . goyang habis.

huhu...to get rid of the boredom..i decided to camwhore-ing.ahakz.

such a real camwhore........

supposedly im goin bck 2 uitm 2day.however, its cancelled.

postponed 2 2mro.

huhu.

enuff said.

love, zella

ramadhan

its ramadhan!!
this is the time where i can transform myself into a better muslim. after all im a free spirit who practises islam but with lack of iman, i dont think i have been a good ones.
people said it is easier to buat pahala during ramadhan because all the syaitans dah kena ikat. hopefully all the "syaitans" who have been disturbing my minds before this will be tied tightly.x pun guna mangga. so that it will be easier for me to bertaubat.im really hoping i cn perform all the 5 waktu solat. amin amin..
talkin about bertaubat..last nite sempat lg we all menjenguk SS.shoots. jz imagine, the nite b4 puasa we went to club instead of tarawih..aiya i dunno wut 2 say la.

but semua also takut when we planned to go last nite. everyone also had the 2nd thoughts. should we go or shouldnt we??
we've been discussing this topic for quite sometime...basically this is what we've been discussed

maw called me n askd to meet him downstairs. i was watching eiffel im in love n i have to pause it for a while. so i went down.there were maw n eyza..

eyza: uinah jo..2nite pkul brapa mau gerak??
me: aku ikut jak kamu but kalau blh mlm la cuz cousin aku blk mlm..
they were suppose to send me to my cuz's hze.
eyza: oo ok. c mona bwa pg ss ni.( she was referring to maw whom sometimes we called mona.)
me: hah? jadi ka i2 jo pg club tym2 puasa?? nnt kena panah petir kita mcmna??
u might realize everyone is been called jo n evyone is calling evryone jo in our discussion.
eyza: ish mulutmu jgn mcm kurang ajar sna ah.
me: bah mana2 jak la.
eyza: ok jom cari baju.

so we've decided to go.

i go to my room n azee was still in the toilet.mandi.
i continued watching eiffel im in love.
then azee came in. told her the plan n she got excited.started to open her closet n eyeing for suitable tops in her wardrobe.n later complained dunno what to wear. she ended up wearing her black top from last sem's dinner which is kinda revealing.u cn c the cleavage u noe.

yes, finally i cn wear my turqoise mini skirt with pleats which i just bought n i was astounded sine it is a size 6. i cn fit in a size 6 skirt. totally unbelieveable cuz im a size 8 usually.or 10 sometimes. did i lose wieght?? hurm..i wonder.

after putting on our make-ups,suddenly my phone rang. it was mama.

mama: bon, dh tgk berita?
me: nope..y?
mama: oh jakarta kena tsunami. oo ya, also mentioned about the possibility tsunami to hit northern m'sia..kedah,penang,n perak. so better kasi cancel ur plan to go to kak nisa's hze. dekat dgn beach 2.
me: erm..ok ma.( i lied to mama. shoots. i am in kak nisa's hze rite nw..typin this crap.)

i told them about the tsunami warning.

n we were like so quiet in the car. i didnt utter not even a word.
i was praying the entire time. ya allah, semua doa yg diketahui.
n plus the radio rosak some more.
nah 4 mute retarded kids in the car. u cnt imagine.
tiba2 c maw who cnnot tolerate to the unusual silence decided to stop the car n fix the speaker. btw bkn the radio yg rosak but the speaker. because kena himpit dgn our luggage.
after a while, everything started to seems normal again. everyone also nyanyi gler sumbang.
went to uitm png to fetch elul.headed to SS.

out form SS around 1.45 am. awal than usual. evryone also penat.

inside the car

maw: eh korg tau x knape aku x park tmpt biasa? ( usually we parked @ parking space with the illegal valet services which is dkt dgn beach instead last nite we parked nearby the cemetry)
us: knapa?
maw: tmpt biasa dkt beach nnt kena tsunami awal kena.

mulut semua pun x insurance. nauzubillah.

additional scenes of mulut x insurance.

azee: ui kmu tau ka tym dlm ss td aku tgk d luar pokok bergoyang kuat ui.angin kuat. nasib x tsunami kn.

hiya, 44 org ckp jd doa.alala

that was it.
around 2 am sahur @usm..met kholie thre. there were azim n nabil also. finished "sahuring" they wanted to go to the cc. i slept @ the cc on the big brown cushion. it was really comfy.
then, this morn they sent azee n i to kak nisa's hze. so here i am sitting on the bed wit my laptop surfing the net n posting my blog. giler x sbr2 eh smpai terus on9.
ini menunjukkan kejakunan yg berpunca drpd kelajuan internet connection di uitm yg lebih perlahan drpd kelajuan air kencing saya mengalir deras.
chow..btw selamat berpuasa!!

p/s: fibz how was ur plan mcd4 sahur?

life is great

hell yeah..i've finished my bel 360 assgment!!
today is the submission date n i've completed all jz b4 2pm today..gonna submit after this class. fuh finally.
this sem has been very bz 4 me, for us the final year law students..assgment..assgment..tons of assgment.
for both bel, bel 360 n bel 340 we have to do a research n a report which has affected my life socially, mentally,physically n also financially.
after i submit this report..huhu..im gonna be free!!!
u noe wut, i felt like i wanna run naked..muahaha naked mile!!
or yell from the rooftop of the academic block
or slap someone..hehe ;p

whatever things i'll do after this.. doesnt matter because by finishing this assgment n submiting it, i felt like thre's a big burden lifted frm my shoulders.n im free..well not completely free..there's still the oral presentation n also final exam is jz around the corner huhu(hopefully i got dekan, kempunan from last sem..nearly dekan 3.47 fuck!!)

overall, life is great!!
no assgment+ more time to relax= total happiness!!
enuff said

of discovering the miracles of makeup

Women and make-up. Is like music and lyrics. It cant be separated. But poor me, I just discovered the miracles of make-up at the end of my puberty age. During high school, anything that relate to make-up is a big thing for me. All I knew was Johnson&Johnson compact powder, n lip balm. That was it.
Once I reached the tender age of adulthood,( im 19) my make-up vocabulary has improving. N so does the knowledge of wearing make-up to enhance my beauty. I just bought my first liquid eyeliner last month n during my first attempt, my hand was shaking completely out of control like some elderly who suffered from Parkinson which resulted with a very shaky line on my eyelid. Pfft..it was horrible. But luckily after several practices, im already a pro. Even azee asked me to draw for her. Fuh..what an achievement.
However, if u asked me to apply full make-up..erm u should think twice. This is due to my limited knowledge of applying eyeshadow with diff shades. Well u know, apply the lighter shades 1st then the darker ones. Theoretically, I knew a lot about make-up. thanks to cleo, my monthly bible. But practically, I sux.
At the age of 19, what u can see in my make-up collection, are basically 1 mousse foundation, 2 compact powders, 1 mascara( which I think has already exceed the expiry date), 1 black liquid eyeliner, 1 black stick eyeliner, 1 emerald green pencil eyeliner, 1 navy blue pencil eyeliner n 1 kohl grey eyeliner..thats it..no blusher,no eyeshadows, o yea n tons of lips stuff cuz im a big sucker for lips stuff. Doesn’t matter lipgloss or lip balms. I just love it. Except for lipsticks cuz I don’t think it suits me well. I look old wearing lipstick.
Nowadays, even my 14 yrs old cousins..they were wearing full make-up when we went to the mall. They even have a set of estee lauder make-up collection. If u compared us by the make-up, they look way more mature than me who are just wearing a very thin layer of foundation n eyeliner n for sure my body shop watermelon flavored lip gloss at that time. If u went to the mall, u cn see many young girls wearing heavy make-up. Even in uitm, u cn see many girls attend lectures with tons of make-up which I only applied for special occasions. Girls with natural beauty are very hard to find these days. Im not saying that girls cannot wear make-up, even I, myself are hooked to liquid eyeliner n u cn see i go to classes wearing liquid eyeliner everyday. But that’s it. Oh n lipgloss. U don’t have to wear full make-up. Save it for ur special occasion.
I cnt understand these girls who thinks in order to achieve the looks of GISELLE BUNDCHEN OR ADRIANA LIMA u have to apply tons of make-up. Does anyone here who still belief in inner beauty here? Beauty stands in the eyes of beholder. Not on how many layers of ur foundation or how many colors of ur eyeshadows.
Im not suggesting that make-up should be banned neither saying that women wearing make-up look horrible. I love to see my mum applying make-up n I cnt wait to see the result. Make-up does help to enhance your beauty but plz don’t wear make-up where your beauty is hidden beneath it.
N use make-up according to the proper occasion or time. Do not wear make-up where u’ll ended up looking like a Chinese opera!!

Here’s some pics of myself with make-ups n with no make-ups.







me with make-up

Me with no make-ups

Which 1 do u think is better??
Do the comparison.

its a holly..holly..friggin holiday!!

holiday is jz around the corner..

n my holiday trip has been cancelled!!

all my frenz are goin bck 2 kl n im not goin anywhre..im stuck here in UITM alone..erm not practically alone..wif my beloved azee darling actually. wut r we goin 2 do??

oo we need a plan.like a very good plan.

erm talking about holiday..it kinda reminds me to our trip to perak( azee n i of course). my bro's getting married wif a local in perak. so we headed to perak wif my family. after the wedding ceremonial is over, i called my fren, my bestfren from primary school( Syamim@mim-she is an architecture student in UITM perak). i asked her to be my tourist guide which turns out boleh diharap la.

we went to jaya jusco in ipoh..ya la i know its kinda lopek pegi holiday lepak kat jaya jusco..but i think according to mim that is the biggest n happening shopping mall in ipoh.

then, we went to several petrol stations since i needed to go to the loo so badly and most of the public toilet is so freakin dirty which i wont n never gonna sit on my ass on the freakin dirty toilet bowl.

personally i think the gov should upgrade the standard of the public toilets in malaysia n also the cleaning sys..

bck 2 our journey in perak.

the highlight of the day was when mim decided to bring us to kellie's castle.

omg, the place is so..erm..historical!!

u should see the building man. even after hundreds of year( im not sure about the facts about kellie's castle), the architecture of the castle is still worth to amaze. cantik siot!!

but it was kinda creepy..i got goosebumps the entire time i explored the castle. the local said the place is haunted. im not really sure about that but well makhluk halus also Allah's creation. im not really into supernatural stuff!

okay..we did managed to snap some pics. cnt miss the chance. btw thre's diz 1 levi's ad was shooted in kellie's castle itself.

azee n i ..azee was so bz talkin on the phone wit her boo

..mim,me, n azee.well im the bridge n they ar ethe petronas twin tower.

c im in the middle. n so does the bridge connecting the towers.

of remembering the suckiness of my life

sometimes life is unfair..
people say life is fulled with ups n downs.
but mine seems to face the downside more lately..
there's so much in my mind n my mind seems cnt stop thinkin bout all the craps n bullsh*t..
ya allah..
i really need a time out from diz completely hectic life.
i need to be sumwhere where my mind would juz stop thinkin n enjoy my teenager life.
this is when i got really homesick n the only person i need now is my mum..
shit..(now im starting to cry)
someone told me bout the visualisation technique..
whenever u're sad or u jz need to b suwhere else..jz visualise it in ur mind.
i've tried it so many times..but it doesnt help that much..its jz for the temporary high..
after i've done wif the visualising..
here i am..stucked alone wif all my probz.
i really need to stop thinkin about my probz n concentrate more on my studies..
cmmom zella!!
enuf wif all the drama. focus on ur study.n at the end of diz year u wont be stucked in diz place anymore surrounded by all those fcukin BI**H..
cnt wait to finish my pre-degree n start a completely new n happy life.
insyaallah..amin,amin yarabbil alamin..
i miss my mum so much.
i miss her hug..
i miss her kiss..
i jz miss her.

enuff said!